As I wake this morning, the first thought that comes to mind is of my son, T. On this glorious day 19 years ago he made his way into the world and forever changed my life. Though he was not my first born, he was my first son, and there is just something about the love between a Mother and her son. My daughter holds her spot well as first everything...child, girl, grandchild, etc, etc. Trust me when I say she rocks it, and it would be very easy for another child to get lost in her shadow. I could never let that happen! For me, he was the one that always thought I was the one that rocked the world.
T is not perfect, not even in this Mama's eyes. We just have a really good relationship. He's the one that ALWAYS thinks about. I know it is going to be so hard to let go of him when the time comes. I have already been going through that with my daughter, and trust me...it ain't fun!!! It hurts like hell. When you have poured your entire life in to raising your kids and they are grown....what's left? I have a wonderful husband and we have a great relationship, but he's not the kids, so it's still a loss.
For me, T is the one that can walk in a room and say, "Mama" and bring a smile to my face. He's the one that is most like my Daddy. The comedians in the family, you never know what the two of them may say or do. He just makes my heart sing with joy. I know I don't have a lot of time left to spend with him, so I try to savor every moment. He has some health problems, so it seems that we spend all of our time together lately at the doctor's office. We make the best of it.
T is not perfect, not even in this Mama's eyes. We just have a really good relationship. He's the one that ALWAYS thinks about. I know it is going to be so hard to let go of him when the time comes. I have already been going through that with my daughter, and trust me...it ain't fun!!! It hurts like hell. When you have poured your entire life in to raising your kids and they are grown....what's left? I have a wonderful husband and we have a great relationship, but he's not the kids, so it's still a loss.
For me, T is the one that can walk in a room and say, "Mama" and bring a smile to my face. He's the one that is most like my Daddy. The comedians in the family, you never know what the two of them may say or do. He just makes my heart sing with joy. I know I don't have a lot of time left to spend with him, so I try to savor every moment. He has some health problems, so it seems that we spend all of our time together lately at the doctor's office. We make the best of it.
Simply put, I treaure the love I share with my son and every moment I have left with him. He was a "surprise" baby, but I have always said that God knew exactly what He was doing when he sent him to me, but then again, doesn't God ALWAYS know what He's doing?
